Yep, it's over.

And I'm okay with that. Really really. It's strange, actually. I felt it coming, and I'd already had some thoughts earlier, and now it's over and I feel... fine.

"Wouldn't it be great if no one ever got offended!
Wouldn't it be great to say what's really on your mind"...

I'm confused. Uncertain. Perplexed. And just a little but hurt. I'm not sure what's going on, but past events give me very little patience with the current situation. But what if I'm reading it all wrong? Am I really being 'cut out', or is there just a lack of opportunity to communicate? Do I give it more time, or should I just move on? What's better: the benefit of the doubt or self-preservation?

Slavery, squares, serials, snow, and stickhandling.

15 days.
31 students.
90 minutes from home.
Infinite number of lesson plans.

Hooray for practicum!

More later.... I've got tests to mark, and I'm procrastinating. But I promised.

I CAN HAS GOLDFISH??????

Yes, yes, it's snacktime. And I have Goldfish. Gowdfish. Plain goldfish - none of those froofy flavourings for me, thank you very much. Though I know how much Andrew liked them.

www.icanhascheezburger.com - That is one hilarious website!

Ooh, that's a fat one!

Today's just been dragging along - I can't believe it's only 1:00! Alarm clock went off at 6:30, got up at 7:06, had a quick shower, woke Jon up to ask him to drive me to school, dried and straightened hair, woke Jon up, got the rest of myself ready, woke Jon up, warmed up some milk for my coffee, realized that someone STOLE my travel mug, chugged down the coffee, went to school, la la sat through 8:30 class, probably dozed off, went to the Student's Centre for an English Toffee, saw the hugely long line at TH (it's Roll-up-the-Rim time, and I'm 0 for 4), walked around for a bit, chatted with Dee for about half an hour, got the ET, got a computer, have been sitting here ever since, reading all kinds of stuff online and working on a vest (this thing's taking forever! Take 2 on this thing - I went from 220 stitches on a 4mm needle to 190 on a 4.5 mm; it's made quite a difference, but it's still taking a long time. I tore apart an old sweater of Jo's that didn't fit either of us, so it's all free yarn for me! and tons of it! It's an interesting gray that'll work well over just about all of my dress shirts, so that's good. If it fits. What if it doesn't? Eugh, that's a horrible thought!)

Want ridiculous? How about the Capitals/Bruins game last night? 6-0 for Washington after the first period? 10-2 final score?

Now that's

Ridiculous.

Or do you want a good book? Try The Black Tulip, by Alexandre Dumas. A fascinating story of political and personal betrayal, amid the race to develop the rarest of the most-prized flower, the tulip. Wonderfully written, if a bit shaky on historical accuracy, and it's set in Holland, which is just one more reason to read it!

"It's a marshmallow world in the winter
When the snow comes to cover the ground.
It's time for play,
It's a whipped-cream day
I wait for it the whole year round."


Yes, I know that's supposed to be a Christmas song, but seriously, look outside! (and there's more on the way). And that song got itself stuck in my head - I caught myself singing it in the shower last night!

This week has been pretty close to fantastic, I think. Well, now it's okay, anyway. I recall thinking yesterday that the week was entirely too short, where was I going to find enough time to study for 2 midterms AND write a 7-page annotated bibliography? Guess what - that's all done now, and not enough bad enough to lose sleep over! And now my last class of the week is finished, and it's time for the Reading Week excitement to begin! Actually, I got a head start on that already on Wednesday. Because on Wednesday, exactly 5 years minus 1 day from the day I wrote my G1 driver's test, I (finally) got my G! I really cut it close on that one. Ahhh, the thrill of procrastination. I was, yes, a bit nervous, but not too bad - I knew that I knew what I was doing...... mostly. Then last night I got a call from my Campfire! co-counsellor from last summer, who's coming over on Sunday! We started getting excited about seeing each other again - maybe not the best timing, because after that I had to force myself to sit down and finish my bibliography. Bleaugh.


Today - after I had handed in the bibliography, and Dr. G. totally scooped all my material for my seminar presentation (!) - I took the bus downtown again (I do that at least twice a week, I think!) to the library, hoping to get some video entertainment for next week. I didn't get the movies - either of them :( - but I managed to find some books to console myself ;), and I saw Janelle, whom I haven't seen since Christmas. The books should last me - til Monday, anyway.

But now I have coffee (serious caffeine addiction going on here, I tell ya), and I know I have no more academic requirements for at least the next half week, and I'm going to see Mel and Laura on Sunday, and Debbie on Wednesday if we can work it out, and my other girls on Friday - and this is gonna be great!

Have a good Reading Week - or just Family Day (*hah!*) if you're not lucky enough to be a student (or if you go to York U. - hee hee!)

Bo: "You forgot something very important."
Riccio: "What?"
Bo: "It's under my jumper."
Hornet: "What?"
Bo: [pulls up his sweater] "Me!"

~ my favourite quote from the movie The Thief Lord

... except when Bo says it, it's more like "Mmmeeeeee!!!!"

I'm a little twitchy today. I think it's a combination of early-morning coffee and a postponed presentation I was gearing up for. You know the feeling: you know the professor is going to introduce your topic (Roman temples, in this case), and you're waiting for her to start on the temple of Apollo on the Palatine, which was your topic, and instead she's talking about the temple of Jupiter Capitolinus, and before you can present class is over. So all those nervous butterflies don't get to come out, and they sit and twitch for the next hour, making it really hard to type in passwords or anything, because they reach all the way to your fingers. That's me at the moment. "Mmmeeeeee!!!!"

Hm, hm, hm. It's a little slow right now - four hours to wait until my next class, but then everything will start up again. Right after class I have to run to catch the bus and go to work, which will probably be really busy because Monday was a holiday.

Random Thoughts.......

(alert: these are really random!)

* I love the way babies smell after they have a bath. I was babysitting yesterday at church, and trying to get the youngest baby to sleep - my arm and shoulder were so sore afterwards, but I wouldn't have traded that for anything.

* I can't wait to start my new job - I get to take the bus for the first time by myself, and finally make use of this HSR sticker on my student card that I've had for 4 years! Plus the job should be great - I already know how to do it.

* I want coffee. Okay, that wasn't really so random as much as it is constant - I can't get going in the morning without my dose of motor oil!

* I'm using these "-" thingies a lot!

* I want to go to Holland. I really want to go!

* I really liked making Em's birthday present. I'm actually looking for ways to prolong it!

* Then I have to make Jon a scarf

* ... and a birthday present, I think

* It's a good thing I know how to knit - I probably won't have much money to buy presents!

* It feels weird when Jo comes to visit, because I know it isn't really her home anymore, but it was for so many years!

* Still 20 minutes to go. I think I'm going to go get lunch - a hot dog, maybe.

* There's a HOLE in the bottom of my jacket pocket!

* Will it feel weird if I knit on the bus?

* If the temperature in here is a reflection of outside, I'm going to regret not taking my fingerless gloves with me today!

* Is it possible to live without regrets?

* Is anyone but me going to read this post?

* Maybe I'll get a muffin and E.T. instead

I'd apologize again for the random-ness, but I doubt anyone but me will read this post, and I know what I'm like.